Written, September, 2007
Well actually…. The truth of the matter is, I am feeling more and more disconnected, and bereft at being on the outside looking in… sort of, I think. Honestly I have always felt a little like a tag-along in SL. I followed KJ in at the conclusion of my Walden masters, and others have been the movers and shakers in SL and RL. That’s ok up to a point, but when people you call friends empirically demonstrate that you aren’t as important to them as they are to you, well, that’s very hard to take. And not just one friend mind you, but at least two whom I consider to be VIPs in my life.
While Victoria was able to be somewhat more connected to friends at SLCC, after a Saturday morning hello call from KJ, I was completely out of the loop. IMing with Vic, she mentioned Twitter, and already distraught about the technology situation at school (amongst other things) that sent me down, down, down.
I had a gut feeling when I signed up, that it might not have been a good idea for me. I should have listened to the universe trying to stop me. I didn’t. And now I am paying -foolishly perhaps, but painfully paying nonetheless.